Resting- for now

So the other day was miserable- an understatement. Today? Back in the fight back to trying to be in the moment, not in the past or scared shitless of the future.

But I am scared of that post- makes me vulnerable. And not being vulnerable, of always having my shit together when I have been a hot mess since the get go, that takes me to a whole nuther level. And pretending has gotten everything I did not want.

Being in that fear, in that ' what the hell am I doing?' is what being true to yourself is about,

allowing ourselves to heal and move on.

This doesn't mean I won't bear my burden but it does mean I put down my cross because someone needs it for fire wood.

Go get some.